Stop Worrying About What Others Think

There is always going to one person that disagrees with you or what you are doing. Let's just put that out there straight away!

We go through life doing whatever it is that we do. For me, I teach (no clever comments about how all I do is finger-paint or "those who can't do teach"), I am involved with my church, I love ice-hockey and country music just to rattle off a few things. From these, there are a multitude of things that people disagree with. For example; my sister probably couldn't care less about ice-hockey, my brother is one of those people who is convinced that teaching is a 9 - 3 job ..... and all you do is finger-paint, a lot of people will choose to dislike my choice in music because the 'country twang' makes them cringe and the biggie, many have criticised me for my faith.

I'm sure you have heard this before - but stop worrying about what others think! If I let other opinions bother me, and at times they do - trust me, then I wouldn't 'be me' anymore (cliche!!!). Honestly, all I have to do is hear a deep southern voice or listen to a hockey game to hear the puck sliding across the ice and I feel relaxed. I understand others may not feel the same way, but that doesn't mean it makes it any less relaxing for me. It doesn't mean I have to change what I enjoy to suit them and make them feel satisfied.

My faith, is just that. It's mine. Yes, I believe what I believe and if you want to question me about it then go right ahead - I won't hold back and I'd love to share. But at the same time, I hate the perception that all Christians are indoctrinating people. We're not. At least we really shouldn't be! I share my faith where I can, but I recognise that it may not be something that others agree with, and I accept that.

So same for you! Choose to enjoy what you enjoy and what matters to you. If you are constantly looking for the seal of approval from those that surround you I guarantee you will be left disappointed. Don't let their opinions sway who you are - stand firm in what you believe. We are all different, and isn't that what is so great! We also have our own beliefs and opinions. They may not be shared beliefs and opinions, but we all need to respect that about one another, and show a little more love and kindness. Just because we stop worrying about other opinions doesn't mean we disrespect the people with the opinions!

I honestly believe that life can be lived to the fullest when we start living and seeking out life, as opposed to worrying about the negative things that others think of us. I challenge you to do the same and to challenge your friends to do the same with you! :)


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One Year On

There are many cliches that go along with death. One that I have heard a lot is "time heals". Firstly, it doesn't heal. Think about it, you lose someone you love and yep, wait a year and you'll be hunky dory! Hate to break it to you but it just doesn't happen like that. Yes, there are advantages to time passing. With time comes distance. Distance from the event. Distance that helps blur it all a little bit (for lack of a better phrase) and give you a chance to find a new normal. That's another one - "things will never be normal again". This one used to make me laugh - seriously, is that not a given? 'Normal' changes and adapts as you and your circumstances do and the event kind of becomes a part of you and your life.

It is the now the sixth anniversary of losing my dad. So crazy that we are already at six years! In the past six years, life has carried on (ooh, another cliche ;) - although very true). My family and I have adapted to our new normal by plodding on with our lives. It has not been easy. There have been many tears and fights, but a lot of laughs too. We have fought to stay strong when all we wanted to do was crumble (and still crumble). We have pushed each other away and held onto each other when no one else has been there.

I know I have mentioned this in previous posts, but I have felt really let down by the people around me. People I thought could and should have been there for us instead of (literally at times) crossing the street to avoid us, forgetting the anniversaries or birthdays, or walking straight passed us without so much as a hello, all because they thought a picture on the wall was enough, or having family as leaders in our church meant we had someone looking after us. It was even said that they weren't there because they thought others had it covered.

If there is one thing that I need to take away from all of this, and should share (and in the words of Hunter Hayes), it's that you can't love too much. If you know, or even suspect that someone is hurting, don't just assume that someone else will be there for them. Go out of your own way to do something to help.

Another year on and being let down still hurts. Losing my dad still hurts. But I am learning to be grateful for the time I had with him. The obnoxiously loud laugh he had and his cheesy grin. There were ups and downs, but he was my dad and I miss him. I have hit milestones that I wish he could have been here to see and be a part of. But with time also comes new experiences and I could have chosen to not carry on with life so that he wouldn't miss out on them. But then I wouldn't be living. I want to experience what life has to offer, even if that means that it's hard at times.

I encourage you, if you have ever gone through a similar experience to do the same - experience life. Maybe you won't feel like doing it right away. Maybe it will take a few years. That's okay! But eventually, you'll get there. Remember, don't be afraid to ask for help or even for a friend to just grab a coffee with you. You'll be surprised how good it feels to smile and laugh for five minutes! And eat cake and ice-cream!!

So, one year on, the purpose behind this blog remains the same. I want to share my experiences in the hopes of helping and encouraging others. Despite being written a year ago, the following words still ring true - whatever you are going through or have been through, or even will go through, there is life out there - you just have to go out there and find it!


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Chapter By Chapter

I'm sure you have heard it said that your life is like a book, and you are writing your own story a chapter at a time. I'm sure you've also heard it said, or at least read if you've read some of my previous posts (I'm really hoping there are other people reading this ...), that I'm not completely convinced that I am doing what I'm meant to be doing - but really who is, right?

In Philippians 4:11, a verse that has quickly become one of my favourites, Paul speaks of how he has learnt to be content with wherever he is in life (and he didn't exactly live a life of luxury) - something we should do also. I admit it's often tough to feel happy when feeling out of place and feeling unsupported in what you really want to do. Maybe you can relate. Maybe you too have friends - family even - that discourage your ambitions and dreams. Maybe your story at the moment is just a chapter in your life. But in some way, doesn't that offer a little comfort? That one day, this chapter will end and a new one will begin?

I'm sure authors agonise over some of their chapters whilst they find others an absolute breeze to write. Similarly, readers probably fly through some chapters yet find others boring to read. And in this way, our lives really are like books. Some chapters are really easy to get through. They are gripping and exciting, filled with new experiences. However, there are also some chapters that simply aren't the same. They may seem endless and difficult, and they may suck. But remember, just like in a book, chapters end.

Wherever we are in our lives, there is always something else about to happen - whether it be good or bad. But I believe that there is a reason behind everything we go through, even if it is not evident at the time. We get through life like we get through a book - chapter by chapter.



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4 Things We All Have In Common

There are many things that I would like to do with my life. Many different professions that I would like to be a part of. Many opportunities I would like to take. Many places I would like to go. Sometimes, I feel that I am failing myself by not doing something else. But ultimately, I guess, whatever I do, I want to do good and be a part of something good. I want to make a difference.

When I left primary school at 11 years old, there was a leavers' service to celebrate my friends and I ending one chapter in our lives and beginning another - the start of secondary school where we would, once again, be at the bottom of the food chain (unless you had really cool friends a few years above, and I was never that popular). Honestly, I couldn't tell you what words of encouragement were spoken in the hopes of inspiring us - all I remember is being given a parker pen, which, believe it or not, was really exciting back then! But this week, I was invited to a friends leavers' service and got to hear their motivational speech, and I couldn't help but think that it was something that everyone should hear, or perhaps just be reminded of.

There are four things that we all have. These four things are the backbone of what we need to make a difference. Firstly, we have eyes, to see the world around us. To see the good, the bad and the downright ugly. Secondly, we have a heart to feel what we are seeing. We may see pure happiness but we need a heart in order to feel it and to feel the good that can come from it. Instead of happiness, it may be sheer pain and heartbreak that we witness. It will be our heart that stirs up a movement and encourages us to seek change. Thirdly, we have a brain to figure out what we can do. At times it may feel like we are an ant in a world of giants. But there is always something, no matter how small, that can be done! Finally, we have hands and feet to actually go about making change. Each and every one of us, individuals or groups have the means and power to make change happen!

I agree that it may seem that world leaders, politicians, celebrities and athletes are capable of greater change. But are they?? They have press and cameras and a tonne of money (which, lets face it, could be spent in places and given to people that really need it - but that is a whole other topic/rant) but I wonder, if we all truly believed that we were capable of change, how different would this world look? Not even necessarily the world, but our schools, our homes, our workplaces. We can make change possible in little or large measures. But change is change. And it is possible. No matter what we have or what we are going through, we can use that to inspire change. I may have gone through losing a parent to cancer, but through that experience, I found a voice that I didn't know I had. One that I could use to share my story and hopefully help someone else feel like they are not alone. And that can be the same for anyone. For you. You can use whatever you are going through or have been through to inspire change.

There are countless quotes I could write here about being the difference you want to see in the world (see what I did there?) but it is true. If you wish to see something change, you have to be willing to change it. And you have what you need to make a change happen and to make a difference in this world!

Change. It may be a six letter word, but it can be incredibly powerful. You can be incredibly powerful!



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Struggles in Celebrations

So, clearly the first post in a while. Needless to say that life got a bit busy - and it doesn't seem like it will be letting up anytime soon - although now it's summer and time to relax amongst being busy (if that even makes sense)!

The last couple of months have been filled with milestones. I turned 21, applied and interviewed for my first job and this week brought the end of 3 years of slaving for my degree - Hallelujah! Not going to lie, I'm very happy to have finished university! However, it was, along with getting my first job and turning 21, far more emotional than I had planned or anticipated. Each were a reminder that my dad wasn't around to celebrate with - which sucked. No other way around it. It just quite frankly sucked! I saw many of my friends celebrate with both parents, and also saw others celebrate with just one, or even by themselves. But ultimately, my dad was one of the first people that I wanted to celebrate with. For all his faults, I know how excited he would've been that I got my first job and will be graduating university with a degree. I can imagine his smile, laugh and his tears (hopefully of happiness - but also sadness because I won't be graduating with a 100% mark ;) ) that he would have had on his face when telling him. 

Maybe this year will be more of a reminder of him not being here because of what is happening, and each milestone that passes feels amazing and also like being crushed by a tonne of bricks, but all of it helps. And that's what needs to be remembered. With each moment of success and failure that dredges up old memories and feelings, as well as developing new ones, helps to heal wounds a little bit more. Maybe slowly, but surely. That cliche that says 'time heals', whilst I wouldn't necessarily say it is completely true because I don't think time can ever heal losing a parent, I can see how it has helped to bring some peace, acceptance and even some hope.

That being said, time also brings new pain. Today, being Father's Day has never really got to me before. But for some reason, it really hurt today. Perhaps because of this week finding out my results and knowing how proud my dad would've been. But whatever I go through, I have to remind myself (or at least let someone else remind me, because, let's face it, I am quite stubborn) that it's all part of the process. It helps the grief, which I have come to learn is an ongoing process and doesn't happen overnight. Being strong doesn't mean never crying. It doesn't mean never needing to talk about your feelings. It means owning how you're feeling and knowing that it's okay to struggle even in times of happiness and celebration. 

Life is a Roller Coaster of Emotion

This week has been emotional to say the least. And by saying this, it doesn't mean I spent the week sobbing. It was a mixture of emotions - both happy and sad, often all happening at once!

One of the big issues this week was that I was able to resolve a lot of issues relating to my dad .... It was not easy; it was awkward and a little painful to rehash everything I had felt over the past 5 years. But, it was needed. Boy, was it needed! For some reason (I can honestly say hand on heart that I don't know why it had become such an issue for me) I had grown to resent certain people for not being around when I felt they should've been. There was a great deal of bitterness, anger and disappointment that I had been, and was still feeling. However, I had been wondering for a long time what I could do to get over it. I had thought about just leaving it alone and letting it all fizzle out. But that never really get's anyone anywhere, does it? So, the only option I could see was to confront the issue and speak to these people. Believe me, I was terrified. I knew I had a point, but I was still incredibly nervous as to what their reaction would be and what they would come back to me with.

Anyway .... after about 4 and a half months, I finally managed to organise a time to meet and discuss some of the issues and questions I had with them. Thankfully, although I didn't see it at the time, I only had about 6 hours to stew and stress about what I was going to say and hear. This seriously was a blessing in disguise, because if I had had more time, say a day or the weekend, I would have been so stressed and worked up about it that I probably would have just cancelled. I know I was the one who had asked for the meeting, but the closer it got, the more terrified I was. Thankfully, again, an amazing friend of mine (you know who you are!!) encouraged me to keep the meeting and to not back out. She knew how much it meant to me and how important it was that I went through with it.

Cutting a long conversation short, a lot of questions were answered. So much was discussed and I left feeling a lot more comfortable with the whole situation, even if there will still be some unwanted feelings simmering away for a little while. However, it was nice to just sit and listen to these people and hear some stories that they remembered about my dad. They got to see a different side to him and it was good to be reminded of this. 

My point here is that I had to deal with the lemons life handed to me, and I honestly have no clue if I have made lemonade with them or not. But, what I do know is this . . . if I had just left the whole thing to sort itself out, it would have just eaten me away. And I couldn't live feeling bitter and angry every time I saw these people anymore. It wasn't healthy for anyone. So, if there is an issue that you know is eating you away, it is not worth letting it consume you. You need to deal with it in a kind way. This doesn't mean you punch someone because they have done something to you that you don't necessarily like. Believe me, there have been moments where even I have thought this would help! But the old cliché is true: violence is never the answer!

Like I have said before, everything happens for a reason - and sometimes it can be really hard to see what that reason may be. But you have to persevere and try to overcome any obstacles you may face. Because there is life out there, and we have to keep going, no matter how hard it gets. There are people that depend on us, just like there are people that we depend on. We have to fight to stay in the game - even if that means facing some awkward situations head on.

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Making A Beautiful Comeback

This week, there has been a video floating around on Facebook that I finally got around to watching yesterday.

To summarise, the guy in the video, Josh, lost his dad and some members of his school decided to bully him for missing his father. His story resonated with me. When you lose someone close to you, there is a mountain of emotions that you face. Anger. Hurt. Betrayal. Loss. This is by no means an exhaustive list. But the pain that you face is torture itself. And for Josh, it didn't end there - the bullies decided to take it further. Cowards maybe, ignorant more likely. They (perhaps) had no idea what Josh had been through so could never understand what they were doing to him and putting him through.

Despite the pain and hurt Josh must have been feeling, he went on to triumph. And he triumphed beautifully! Just by doing something kind he did something powerful. It may not seem like much on a daily basis, but the act of kindness that Josh used to tell everyone he was still alive and not invisible moved so many in his school - they may have found it strange to begin with, but grew to look forward to it each day!

Take a moment to watch this video and see his story for yourselves - you'll be glad you did!

http://www.faithit.com/this-quiet-kid-sick-being-nobody-watch-what-did-literally-change-everything/

Erin x
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Happy New Year (And All That Jazz)

So ... It is now 2015! 10 days in ... Do you feel like a whole new person yet??

With another year comes the inevitable 'New Years resolutions'. And aren't they always incredibly unrealistic! How often do we try and convince ourselves that "this is the year" - to lose the extra pound or two and get in shape, eat healthy, find a new hobby or quit our jobs and just start backpacking around the world. In all fairness, sometimes these resolutions stick. But, the majority of the time they just seem to fall short before the end of January (and this is even perhaps too optimistic). We have all made resolutions, myself included, and resolutions will continue to be made by many in the hopes of encouraging and enforcing change. 

However, like I said, they rarely stick. Personally, I feel that just because the year has changed, it is still just another day that we wake up to. The transition between the 31st December and the 1st January holds no magical, mystical explanation. Seriously, it is just like every other day, where the day turns into night, and the night then brings a new day. We put way too many expectations on something that happens 364 times elsewhere in the year. Yet, we don't make resolutions for each of these days. Why? Because these 364 other days are not the beginning of the new year, silly! You can only make resolutions (which are essentially dreams, hopes, goals etc.) when it is the new year, right? WRONG!

We dream. As little children we dream. As we get older, we start setting goals, whether these be for personal reasons or for professional purposes. We do this all the time. We don't need to wait for the 1st January to roll around each year before we allow ourselves to dream and strive for what we want out of our lives. We have every day of every year to do this.

I get it. I understand why we wait until the new year. It makes sense - we think about what we want to accomplish in the coming year. But again, we have all year to do this. Would it not be better, more beneficial for us to have this kind of focus and passion all year round. We don't need to wait to feel that we can accomplish something. We are capable of doing this everyday. Sure - it may not seem like we accomplish much on a day-to-day basis, but we do. Just being able to understand a piece of homework, run that extra mile, not burn dinner is an accomplishment.

It's not that I don't make resolutions - I do - but whenever I do, I just forget about them after a week or two. Plus, they are always about me. And if you are being honest, yours are probably all about you too! Don't we spend too much time focussing on ourselves? If we are going to set resolutions, why don't we make them about other people? That way, maybe they will stand a chance of lasting a little longer than the ones you made for this year have. You will be accountable to someone else other than yourself. Potentially, there could be more pressure and encouragement to fulfil the resolutions. You could make someone happy, instead of feeling like a failure because your resolution was unrealistic and failed all too quickly.

If we all decided to allow ourselves to accomplish things throughout the year instead of waiting for the clock to turn midnight on New Year's Eve; if we all decided to focus more on other people, not just at the beginning of a new year, but throughout the year, think of the good we could do and accomplish . . .



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